My name is DJ Shawna…
I read an article today that pulled at my heartstrings big time and inspired me.
So, thank you GRiZ for helping inspire this week’s blog related to Pride (read his article here).
So, my name is DJ Shawna and for as long as I can remember I have felt different from my peers. I was born and raised in the most incredibly kind, loving, and accepting family with a heavy Catholic influence.
I’m, reluctantly, 34 years old and have been trying to find where I feel like I fit in this world.
I knew I liked girls at a relatively young age.
I also liked basketball, volleyball, softball, football, kickball, tag, rollerblading, water parks, making friendship bracelets, practicing magic, breakdancing, making mix tapes, writing poetry, trying to build robots, playing with Legos, going on adventures with my great grandma and brother, and other relatively “normal” things kids and teenagers like.
Why did I focus so much on this ONE thing that made me feel different?
To quote GRiZ “But, as you may or may not know, even in the most stable of environments, the struggle of coming to grips with your sexuality can dominate your world.”
I never wanted to be JUST gay.
I wanted and want to make a difference and be so much more.
I never wanted to be told how I felt was wrong because I didn’t know anything else.
I was born this way.
And so many times, people tried to tell me about how their God didn’t love me or who I was, wasn’t “right”, based off of their religious beliefs.
I wanted to fit in.
I wanted to feel comfortable.
I promise you, I tried…really, really, really hard.
It never worked.
This is tough.
But somehow this connects back to my DJ career.
I have never wanted to only DJ LGBT events.
I’m not ashamed, one bit.
But being gay isn’t the only thing that defines me.
It’s a small part of who I am but it has taken me years for me to realize how important Pride is.
It’s an opportunity for people to feel part of something bigger than themselves.
It’s a sense of community that is meant to be judgment-free and accepting.
It is PRIDE.
I would love to celebrate Pride with each and every single one of you this weekend in Milwaukee, WI to kick off the Summer.
Keep an eye on my social media pages (@DJShawna) for events, gear, and surprises!
Thank you for taking the time to read this and know that if any of this resonates with you, and you are struggling: it does get better.
It always gets better.
I can assure you that you are not alone.
To quote GRiZ once more:
“Yes, there is a lot of negativity and hate. Instead of giving into that fear and sadness, we need to shine. Shine so brightly that it inspires your community to do the same. It won’t always be easy, but the battle is worth it. Never give up on yourself.”
Thank you GRiZ.